“I went into pregnancy expecting it to be amazing, as it’s usually made out to be, but a few days after the positive test I was hit with debilitating antenatal depression.
Everyone was expecting me to act excited, but I was scared, lonely, full of regret, guilty and completely ashamed that I was feeling borderline suicidal about a life event that we had both wanted and had actively made happen.
It was nine months of absolute hell.
I felt angry at society for not setting me up for it… where was this magical time I was supposed to be having?
I wasn’t aware that depression during pregnancy was even a thing beforehand!
I made it through the depression and am now loving being a mum, but still feel this anger at the lack of awareness of antenatal depression out there (so much so that I’m in the process of self publishing a book on it).
Society needs to recognise that pregnancy is not magical for us all and maternal mental health issues are real.” – @_stephaniekate_